More of the Same

I had a mess of posts on my blog that had to do with my drama with Diego and Cecy. Well, I mentioned one part to Diego, and he got upset. I subsequently had to delete blogs of the girl I find so refreshing and lovely. He doesn't actually read my site, so there's no real reason to do this. I could just say that I did and then don't. But that would be bad, no? He likes to keep our lives to ourselves, but I've never been like that. And barely anyone even reads this thing anyways.

I'm sort of sad, because (well, my last blog about the aforementioned girl was actually quite good) I feel like I've lost an important outlet. I can still vaguely talk about things and situations, but I feel restricted in my subject matter. I find this interesting. When I went out to dinner with Beth and Ryan last last weekend, she mentioned to me that she wished her blog was more like mine. In the past, she had written more personal messages and used her blog as a diary of sorts. Then people got upset, and she had to reconstruct and revise. She gave me kudos for being able to say anything I want. Now all that's changed. My blog has been limited by a person who doesn't even read it. Slightly ironic?? Or am I skewing the definition of the word?

I'm still going to talk about stuff, but I'll refrain from "personal" specifics and "highly disparaging" commentary. HAHA. :/ Last night was prom. I decided to stop by, but I think that I shouldn't have. Things didn't turn out the way I hoped. I'm tired of fighting all the time, and think that things either need to change or end. I mean I'm totally hoping for the first, but I don't see how any of it is going to happen. I felt very isolated again. Is this a common theme with me? I feel ostracized from the people at my school (namely the TA's) and feel like Diego is forced to ostracize himself from his group. Not because I don't get along with everyone, but because of a certain individual toward whom I hold "strong" feelings. *sigh*

I need to go out!!! I was reading Beth's blog, and I wish that I had been invited to the museum. I still haven't been to LACMA. I would have loved to go. And I would have taken an audio tour as well, so it wouldn't have been an inconvinience. Whenever I go to a museum (which is RARELY, unfortunately), I want to try the audio tour, but no one else does, and that's sort of weird -- listening to headphones when your company/partner is not. I did an audio tour once. I had to go to a picasso exhibit. I think I was in middle school, but I can't figure out what class it was -- our 6th grade art class?? Could that be right?? Anyways, I went with my dad, and he wanted me to understand as much of it as possible. I remember that it was an amazing exhibit, and that I really learned quite a great deal about the artist and his works.